This letter bomb:

So let's set this place on fire 'cause I've never felt so cold as when I shivered at the thought of growing old. So let's make this house our pyre 'cause I've never felt so cold as when I shivered at the thought of growing old with you.

You played me like a 45 revolving quickly out of style. I dreamed to be your symphony, not another tune that's lost in time.

But don't feel bad 'cause I convinced myself I knew it all along.

Your warm brown eyes on summer nights couldn't protect me from this chill. But how can I be so surprised, all good things must end in their own time.

So when I fall asleep tonight turn up that gas and we ignite. Just give me that one reason why, reason why.

So here I stand with heart in hand, our lives unfold and it explodes. We never had the slightest chance this letter bomb was sealed and stamped. The same old song is all we hum as we go down in flames.

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You make me insane. There are days where I can't even believe I'm related to you and where I just want to get up and leave and never come back. Then there are days where I understand your point of view and I know you're just trying to push me in the right direction. But that's hardly ever.

I can't even begin to understand what you do and what the reason is behind your actions. These past few days, I can't stand being around you and I can hardly look at you. I don't want to be around you. I want you to leave me alone. I don't like you. I don't want you in a ten foot radius of me. I want you to leave and stay away from me and her. I want you to apologize to her and what you've done. I want you to realize how fucked up in the head you are and fix yourself.

I want you to stop overreacting. I want you to stop being so damn loud. I want you to grow the fuck up. I want you to stop being so overprotective. I want you to let me live my life the way I want to!

You can make me so angry, like no one else can. You make me want to tear your face off when you get all up in mine. You make me want to push you. You don't realize how annoying you are.

I wish you would burn in hell. Only sometimes.

I know I'd cry if you really did though because I love you. I can't and won't change that, ever.

What you have,

is what you get.
You don't get 3 lives. Only one.
So live it up, to the absolute fullest. Don't have any regrets. Look on the bright side of any given situation. Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay then it's not the end. Push through the hard times and I promise you, it will be worth it in the end.
I'm sorry, but I'm tired of those who just CAN'T see the good in life.
You all should be fucking grateful, you're actually alive and healthy.

But then again, if you really don't give a shit about your life...Why should I try to convince you that it's something to be thankful for?

I miss you, so much.

"You used to call me your angel, said I was sent straight down from heaven. You'd hold me close in your arms, I love the way you felt so strong. I never wanted you to leave. I wanted you to stay here holding me. I miss you, I miss your smile. And I still shed a tear every once in a while. And even though it's different now, you're still here somehow. My heart won't let you go and I need you to know, I miss you."

I don't know how any of you have dealt with family members dying, but I for one, handle them terribly. I miss her so much, it hurts every day. She only got to see me live 14 measly years of my life. Half of which I didn't appreciate how much she did for me, or how much she loved me. I remember her always calling me to see how I was doing. When it came to my dad knocking on my door, telling me she wanted to talk, I would just groan and roll my eyes and talk for 5 minutes, tops. What a selfish, naive, stupid kid.

You honestly don't know how much I want to go back and APPRECIATE the little things she did.

But I can't, she's gone forever.