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so i think i'm finally accepting the fact that you are far from the person i thought you were. you have done every unforgivable thing to me and i don't understand why i still want you. i have given you everything, and it's not enough. i fell so in love with you but i'm starting to realize that you didn't care. you could have cared less if i did or didn't. you only wanted one thing from me. you did anything you could to keep me hanging around, even telling me you loved me. i don't even know if anything you said to me was true anymore. honestly, if you felt how you did, how could you stop? how could you just sit around and tell me things i wanted to hear, knowing i would believe you? what kind of person does that? you are the biggest asshole i've ever met, you have no heart, and you're such an ugly person. i don't know what i saw in you. i regret ever liking you. i regret ever going out with you. i regret ever loving you. i regret every part of my life that has you in it. i regret ever meeting you. i regret every word i said to make you feel special. you didn't deserve any of it. everything i worked so hard for between us was completely and utterly pointless. i fell in love with a terrible person and now i have to do everything in my power to stop loving you. i would've rather you never saying 'i love you' to me because that's better than being lied to. i almost feel bad for you. you're kinda pathetic and i pity you. it's not like i made you the person you are today. someone must have fucked you up pretty badly. that doesn't mean you had to fuck me up for other guys to come.

despite all of this, i still want you to be happy. without me. why? because i'm nice and i believe in karma.